healthy is the new skinny

So, I haven’t been on tumblr in almost 3 months and I regret every minute of it. I never realized how much blogging with all of you guys really helped me with my weight loss journey and how encouraging all of your posts used to be. I regret to say that I fell off of the health train for about 2 months, and while my goal weight for today was supposed to be 140, I am only 148.3. I feel awful but I am ready to hop back into my old ways and I will not give up!

You guys encourage me SO much and I can’t thank you enough. I know none of yal know that I left but I’m back! How is everyone doing? Have you been reaching your goals? Please let me know!!

xO jackee

My roommate is a nutrition major, and is the type of person who says what she wants to say and doesn’t hold back. She knows that I’ve been working really hard to get healthy and get into shape, so she has recently jumped on the bandwagon with me, which is great! However, I feel like she thinks we are competing. She always corrects me when I give her the tips that I read about weight loss, and critizises my workouts and calorie consumption. She knows that I have recently lost over 10 pounds and I feel like she is bitter because I am suceeding. I really didn’t want this to be the case but she is never proud of me or anything! It’s so weird.. like she is jealous that I am sticking to it? I don’t know! LOL But yesterday my friend brought home pizza and I binged with her, and today I was eating my Special K and my roommate said “There’s no point in eating that after eating all of that pizza yesterday,” as she laughed and walked upstairs! What a bitch! LOL So this has encouraged to go HARDER, run FASTER, eat BETTER and to show her in May that just because I’m not a nutrition major, that I was able to reach my goal weight. 

You don’t believe in me? WATCH ME.

people let us down. they break our hearts, they lie to us, they put us at rock bottom. society gives us something to compare to. the photoshopped models and the walking skeletons are what we swear is beautiful. we look in the mirrors every single day and instead of looking at our beauty, we look for things that we can improve and our little imperfections. we cry about how we can’t find love yet we can’t even love ourselves. we will never be good enough. and no matter how hard we try to become someone better we don’t, because hating yourself is so much easier than changing yourself, isn’t it? we can blame other people for the way we feel and we can blame society for putting us here but at the end of the day, it’s all your fault.. because the only person stopping you from loving yourself is you, and we hate ourselves for it. you will never be beautiful if you let yourself be ugly. you will never be thin if you let yourself be fat. you will never be happy if you don’t make a change. so blame it on other people, blame it on society, and continue to hate that girl starring back at you in the mirror. because if you do, you deserve it.

60 calorie whole wheat pita

Alfalfa Sprouts

140 calorieMorningstar Chicken Patty

Sliced Tomato

35 calorie Laughing Cow Cheese wedge

60 calorie Special K Whole Grain Crackers

yum yum yum ! 

Went to the gym before class this morning and it felt great. I’m going back after class for another 45 or so. My next weigh in is on Valentine’s Day (6 days) and I REALLY want to be in the 140s. I’m hoping for AT LEAST 148.5. 

How much weight do you usually lose in a week? How many cals do you eat & how much do you workout?